This year, I will remind myself over and over again that I cannot please everybody. That no matter what I do, nothing can satisfy each and everyone. And, even if I try the hardest, I end up breaking hearts.
This year, I will remind myself that through every disappointment, I will learn things and lessons that will be valuable to me. That amidst all the bad lucks that will come my way, there's no other way to go but up.
This year, I will remind myself to be kinder to others. That even if I am not perfect, I am trying my best to be a better human being.
This year, I will remind myself to take it slow. Not to rush and compete with the flow of life, to just enjoy every second of it and go to bed smiling and laughing over everything.
This year, I will remind myself of the things that really matter the most: my family. That everything I do, I do it because of them. That even if work is important, spending time with them is more important.
This year, I will remind myself to let God be the captain of my ship. After all, He's the reason why I exist.
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1.22.2014
1.09.2014
Unhappy yet hopeful
Hey yo!
I know everyone still felt that the holidays were too short and therefore each one of us hoped and wished to have an extended vacation even just for a little. But too bad, majority of us couldn't spare more holidays because it would be a bad omen to start the new year with too many absences. Such, was my case.
December wasn't really a blast for us. In the middle of it, my father in law was admitted to the hospital, stayed there for 2 weeks and sadly passed away after Christmas Day at the age of 83. Christmas for us was spent at the hospital, chasing the doctors, buying prescriptions and shelling out our cash bonuses for a greater purpose but no regrets though. I was still happy to at least have given than have done nothing at all. And, thank God for it because I now somehow know what I'm capable of and what kind of person I am.
New Year came but there was nothing special for us too. We were grieving after we sent a family member to his final resting place 2 days before New Year's eve. So, it was a quiet New Year for us. My kids and I went to light a candle at St. Jude Parish, watched some Christmas decorations displayed at the City Hall and went home, drank a little, talked to hubby about different stuff and ended up snoring 2 hours after we blew and honked horns.
So here I am, sleeping off a migraine and spending the whole day tucked in bed and somehow coping up with the throbbing pain and literally unhappy about taking a day off from work.
Yes, to be honest, I'm not happy for skipping work. I don't to hear disappointments, complaints, etc. So much for working in a company owned by a relative. *sigh*
Oh well, maybe it's a sign for something. I just have to absorb it somehow and whatever it may be, I think, I have to think further ahead.
Good luck to our 2014! Let's hope this year will go more smoothly than last year and probably end it with something very good! God bless us!
I know everyone still felt that the holidays were too short and therefore each one of us hoped and wished to have an extended vacation even just for a little. But too bad, majority of us couldn't spare more holidays because it would be a bad omen to start the new year with too many absences. Such, was my case.
December wasn't really a blast for us. In the middle of it, my father in law was admitted to the hospital, stayed there for 2 weeks and sadly passed away after Christmas Day at the age of 83. Christmas for us was spent at the hospital, chasing the doctors, buying prescriptions and shelling out our cash bonuses for a greater purpose but no regrets though. I was still happy to at least have given than have done nothing at all. And, thank God for it because I now somehow know what I'm capable of and what kind of person I am.
New Year came but there was nothing special for us too. We were grieving after we sent a family member to his final resting place 2 days before New Year's eve. So, it was a quiet New Year for us. My kids and I went to light a candle at St. Jude Parish, watched some Christmas decorations displayed at the City Hall and went home, drank a little, talked to hubby about different stuff and ended up snoring 2 hours after we blew and honked horns.
So here I am, sleeping off a migraine and spending the whole day tucked in bed and somehow coping up with the throbbing pain and literally unhappy about taking a day off from work.
Yes, to be honest, I'm not happy for skipping work. I don't to hear disappointments, complaints, etc. So much for working in a company owned by a relative. *sigh*
Oh well, maybe it's a sign for something. I just have to absorb it somehow and whatever it may be, I think, I have to think further ahead.
Good luck to our 2014! Let's hope this year will go more smoothly than last year and probably end it with something very good! God bless us!
10.24.2013
The way I feel tonight
Dear Papa God,
Is it too much to ask for extreme patience, understanding and optimism? Because it's literally running out already.
Lately, I had been experiencing a lot of heartaches from someone whom I expected to support me in every decision that I make, be it good or bad. After all, it's for a long term goal. Yet much to my disappointment, my day always start and end with a lot of painful words being thrown at me. Now, I'm not even sure what "through thick and thin" really meant anymore.
I never regretted making mistakes in life, even if it meant falling and standing back again. I never regretted going through a rough road, even at times when the road is full of piercing stones and the only choice I have to move on is to walk without any shoes on.
To be honest Father, even if I had no regrets, I still can't take off the thoughts of giving up and going back to the place where I feel that I really belong, home. If only I didn't have any children to think of or any responsibilities to face, I would be glad to just leave everything behind and go back to where I started.
At times that I'm at my lowest, I try to put on a poker face and smile like there's nothing wrong. At times, I wanted to drown myself with beer just to cover the pain that I feel even if it's just a temporary solution.
Right now, Father, I feel lost, drained and empty. But I am going to choose the greater good: move on and assure myself that I'm doing the right thing.
Please help me understand all these things Father.
Love, Sweepz
Is it too much to ask for extreme patience, understanding and optimism? Because it's literally running out already.
Lately, I had been experiencing a lot of heartaches from someone whom I expected to support me in every decision that I make, be it good or bad. After all, it's for a long term goal. Yet much to my disappointment, my day always start and end with a lot of painful words being thrown at me. Now, I'm not even sure what "through thick and thin" really meant anymore.
I never regretted making mistakes in life, even if it meant falling and standing back again. I never regretted going through a rough road, even at times when the road is full of piercing stones and the only choice I have to move on is to walk without any shoes on.
To be honest Father, even if I had no regrets, I still can't take off the thoughts of giving up and going back to the place where I feel that I really belong, home. If only I didn't have any children to think of or any responsibilities to face, I would be glad to just leave everything behind and go back to where I started.
At times that I'm at my lowest, I try to put on a poker face and smile like there's nothing wrong. At times, I wanted to drown myself with beer just to cover the pain that I feel even if it's just a temporary solution.
Right now, Father, I feel lost, drained and empty. But I am going to choose the greater good: move on and assure myself that I'm doing the right thing.
Please help me understand all these things Father.
Love, Sweepz
9.30.2013
Today is a Cloudy Day
After a couple of weeks, it finally rained last night. It felt so much cooler. Thank you Papa God for the rain.
Today's a cloudy day. As most people would say, it's bed weather. However, my ideal bed weather would be a cold and rainy day.
Anyway, after mass and lunch, we had a chance to walk in the new building of Abreeza Mall. It's still almost deserted and the people that would go there are those who are either going to jeep stop or making it as an entry to the old building.
As for us, we were on our way to the jeepney stop when we passed by the new building. And we saw a backdrop for "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs". Kids were jumping up and down with excitement and of course, a mother couldn't refuse a photo shoot. So, here it is.
Today's a cloudy day. As most people would say, it's bed weather. However, my ideal bed weather would be a cold and rainy day.
Anyway, after mass and lunch, we had a chance to walk in the new building of Abreeza Mall. It's still almost deserted and the people that would go there are those who are either going to jeep stop or making it as an entry to the old building.
As for us, we were on our way to the jeepney stop when we passed by the new building. And we saw a backdrop for "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs". Kids were jumping up and down with excitement and of course, a mother couldn't refuse a photo shoot. So, here it is.
9.16.2013
Today, I learned: death
* That life is really short. We must learn to appreciate even the smallest things that come our way.
Just last week, we learned that one of our closest friends passed away from a car accident to Bukidnon. From the stories they told us, this friend was on his way to CDO with his boss who was driving the car at that time. When they reached Bukidnon, his boss tried overtaking his car and noticed that another car headed the opposite direction was doing the same. He swerved and their car fell over a cliff. Our friend, who wasn't wearing any seat belt, was found a few meters away from the car. They said that his stomach had a long scratch because of the broken window.
We still can't believe that this happened. He wasn't even 30 yet. It was just so sad.
* That life should be spent on things that matter the most.
* That we should stop worrying about a lot of things. Worrying is like cancer, it robs most of your time away without you noticing it.
* That we should always be positive. Problems are natural. Sometimes, it takes time to find a solution and that prayers to Papa God are the best answer to this problem.
The last few items are not in connection to the story by the way, well, except for the first bullet.
Sometimes, there are people who continuously put something into someone's heart and if these people leave, the hearts are left empty.That's how it feels right now.
To you Sam, may you rest in peace. The kids remembered you when you asked for Momay. Tata even shared to the kids that you helped him carry them when they were still little. God bless you on your journey. We hope you're now in a better place.
Just last week, we learned that one of our closest friends passed away from a car accident to Bukidnon. From the stories they told us, this friend was on his way to CDO with his boss who was driving the car at that time. When they reached Bukidnon, his boss tried overtaking his car and noticed that another car headed the opposite direction was doing the same. He swerved and their car fell over a cliff. Our friend, who wasn't wearing any seat belt, was found a few meters away from the car. They said that his stomach had a long scratch because of the broken window.
We still can't believe that this happened. He wasn't even 30 yet. It was just so sad.
* That life should be spent on things that matter the most.
* That we should stop worrying about a lot of things. Worrying is like cancer, it robs most of your time away without you noticing it.
* That we should always be positive. Problems are natural. Sometimes, it takes time to find a solution and that prayers to Papa God are the best answer to this problem.
The last few items are not in connection to the story by the way, well, except for the first bullet.
Sometimes, there are people who continuously put something into someone's heart and if these people leave, the hearts are left empty.That's how it feels right now.
To you Sam, may you rest in peace. The kids remembered you when you asked for Momay. Tata even shared to the kids that you helped him carry them when they were still little. God bless you on your journey. We hope you're now in a better place.
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