I had always dreamed that I would be able to be very successful career-wise. I dreamed that I will be able to provide the best for my kids: a very good school, beautiful clothes and even the things that I was deprived of when I was still young. I dreamed that aside from being successful, I will be able to balance my family, career and spiritual life.
I'm working on it now and I'm not even halfway. But according to my boss, "thoughts become things" and that's what I'm contemplating about. That's why I often tell myself that "I will succeed, I will succeed". Hard but I'm trying my best to reach that state. *whew*!
And yes, it's heartbreaking. Especially if people around you and close to you looks to you as if you'll fail. Good thing, I'm optimistic and I can stretch my patience over a lot of disappointing things.
Oh well, anyway, I seriously would want to tell someone what I feel right now but I'm not brave enough to do so. Deep inside I feel that he knows how I feel but he just shrugs off his shoulder. Do not dare ask who this is because I'm not going to say a word.
For you:
I am scared to share a lot of my dreams with you because you are the type of person that will not listen, not to me anyway. I tried sharing some of them with you before but it seems as if I'm talking to a wall. You don't respond, none at all. But I know if your friends share their dreams with you, you listen intently, sometimes you even give a tip or two.
I hate it when you say that "it's okay" and you just keep it inside you that you're not. Please say a word. I can explain my point and if you still think it won't work, I will accept it and maybe pursue something else. Please put in mind that your opinion is highly important.Whether you read this or not, I will still do what I think is right for my family, for me.
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