Something's wrong with me..

I have hyperthyroidism.. and it's getting bigger and bigger everyday.. some would say that it still doesn't show but I say, it does.. I'm too shy to have myself pictured.. and would be too shy until I have this thing plucked out of my neck..

I have talked to an endophthalmologist, if I'm not mistaken.. and from what she told me, it's a toxic hyperthyroidism.. she had actually helped me by explaining what it could do to my body and what the effects are.

• toxic hyperthyroidism can be measured. while I forgot how big is mine, she says that it's already showing.
• hyperthyroidism will affect my heart eventually. It will bring my heart into a confused state.
• hyperthyroidism will easily tire you out. Walking a short distance would actually mean that one has to go on panting and gasping for breathe.
• hyperthyroidism will make your eyes bigger with black circles around.
• pregnancy during hyperthroidism is acceptable.
• women who went over birth doesn't actually get hyperthyroidism by shouting. it has no effect when you give birth.
• hyperthyroidism's signs are sorethroats and a rough voice.

and according to the specialist, you could get these either by an iodine deficiency or when you have excess of iodine. Iodized salt, she says, isn't much of a help since when one uses iodized salt, they use it as condiments and at small proportions.

As she went on explaining of it, she came across the means one opts to take for curing the thryoid. Radiation, Surgery or Medication.

Medication would be the easiest. if a body reacts to the medicine after a certain time of taking it, the person wouldn't need to undergo radiation or surgery anymore.

If a body reacted to the medication by shrinking the thyroid a bit, radiation would be the next step.

If the thyroid has already neutralize but the thyroid is still big, surgery is the answer to it. But after surgery, the thyroid might come back.

However which way, partially, I'm scared and the other half is pushing me to go on surgery. But, having wouldn't mean a 100% of a clear thyroid. It may come back and I wouldn't wanna go on another surgery the 3rd time.

and if eventually it comes back, I have to curse science for the discoveries and science for their overly defective medicinal blah blah creations..

Oh well.. oh well.. oh well..