I hate myself..

I hate myself for loving my kids too much..

just last night, as I opened a pack of pregnancy tester and went to the washroom, my twins in return, took out the "do not eat" silica gel out..

they tore it open and ate it..

I was so mad!!! I had to bring them to the hospital for a check up which cost more than a thousand pesos.. we had to bring them for a blood check and urinalysis..

if it weren't for the clumsy mother, the twins wouldn't have eaten a pack of silica gel..

dang it!!!

Happy Easter!

hmm.. before we go searching for eggs at the clubhouse, let's give ourselves a time to reflect on the 1 year that we had gone through..

I was never a good daughter to my mom.. the past year, I was even telling myself that I wasn't ready to give in to my relatives' advise, telling me to ask for forgiveness from my mom..

the 1 year that was long due, as here comes the holy week again, was full of fruitful memories..

but the highlight of my year was when I finally approached my mom, uttering just a single word of sorry..

I always knew that God is with me at every point in my life, after I had my kids, got a decent job, had hyperthyroidism and when I faced mom..

there were no long talks but just the "nod".. although, scolding was a part of it, she was easy to accept me back again.. with the realization that I cannot go home alone but with kids..

I opted to choose the happiness that I'm in now.. although, there were no regrets, comparisons of what happened if I stayed and etc, arised..

but I'm complete now.. and so I would like to share my prayer with you all..

DEAR LORD,
THANK FOR ANOTHER YEAR THAT YOU GAVE ME AFTER EVERY UPS AND DOWNS THAT I ENCOUNTERED.. IT STILL WAS A FRUITFUL YEAR FOR I HAVE LEARNED A LOT AND THE WISDOM THAT ONCE WAS HAS NOW A NEW CHAPTER.. THANK YOU LORD FOR GIVING ME A SMOOTH SAIL TO ANOTHER LENTEN SEASON.. ALTHOUGH, I MUST ADMIT THAT I'M NOT A CHURCHGOER, YOU STILL GAVE ME EVERYTHING YOU COULD TO MAKE ME HAPPY.. THANK YOU DEAR LORD FOR THE STRENGTH TO FACE EVERYDAY, THE COURAGE TO TELL THE RIGHT WORDS, THE LITTLE PATIENCE THAT I HAVE FOR EVERYTHING, THE LOVE THAT I GET EVERYDAY FROM MY FAMILY AND YOU, THE HEART TO BE CONSIDERATE OF PEOPLE, THE HONESTY TO MY FAMILY, AND MOST OF ALL, I WOULD WANT TO THANK YOU FOR GIVING US GOOD HEALTH THROUGHOUT THE YEAR AND THE FORGIVENESS FROM MY MOM..
LORD, I WAS NEVER A GOOD CHILD, BUT HELP ME MAKE UP FOR MY MOM, FOR THE LOST YEARS THAT I WASN'T WITH THEM, FOR THE LOVE THAT I NEGLECTED TO GIVE THEM..
LORD, I KNOW YOU HAVE A PLAN.. AND I WILL ACCEPT EVERYTHING TO BE A GOOD CHILD TO YOU.. HELP ME FEED MY CHILDREN OF THE RIGHT NOURISHMENT SPIRITUALLY AND RAISE THEM AS GOOD CHRISTIANS..
AND WITH ALL THE WISH THAT I WANT TO TELL YOU, I WOULD WANT TO THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME WHAT I HAVE NOT ASKED AND THAT I'M WILLING TO WAIT FOR YOUR RIGHT TIME..
THANK YOU LORD.. I LOVE YOU!
LOVE, AGNES

Don't you wish you were the girl in Cinders?

Britney Spears' husband has bad breath, sweaty armpits and smelly feet, claims his ex-girlfriend.

Kevin Federline's former lover Amy Woods claims he used to go to Vegas on gambling sprees and not wash for days.

The Sun quotes her as saying: "He wouldn't shower or brush his teeth at all so he'd stink. He didn't care."

A spokesperson for Britney denied the claims saying the comments were "ridiculous".

** the last thing that I want is a husband with smelly armpits.. **

Willis and Lohan sharing one picture

can you believe them??

it's not that I'm nosy but I found the picture on the web and thought that it will make you curious too..

isn't he too old for her?? hey, she just turned 18, you know..